I just don't care anymore...
No, really...I just don't.
I. DO. NOT. FUCKING. CARE.
I don't care about what YOU think.
I don't care about what YOU say!
I don't care about the ways that you have hurt me or controlled me.
And I certainly don't care about the ways I have let you manipulate me into something I am not!
So, I realize today...I just don't care anymore!
Breath in and hold...release...Breath, Nicole...just breath...
I need to repeat this again...
I just don't fucking care anymore!
Just keep breathing...
I need to repeat this again...
I just don't fucking care anymore!
Just keep breathing...
I watch it all fall away....
Slip quietly away from choking my soul
and retreat quickly from eclipsing my heart.
Slip quietly away from choking my soul
and retreat quickly from eclipsing my heart.
I am done carrying it around.
DONE!
I just don't care anymore for...
Your critical voice in my head as I get dressed.
GONE!!
Your harsh voice as I slipped into dreams of the future.
Washes away in the falling rain.
Your fear-filled voice as I plan adventures for MY life.
Runs for the hills in fear that it will be silenced.
Your voice spewing negative thoughts that invaded my soul and crushed my spirit.
slips away as another's heart joined mine as we made love.
Your voice and negative outlook on life, on me, on love
vanishes as I quietly passionately embrace my future.
I just don't care about your thoughts, your voice, your pressure on me.
I just don't care of keep carrying it around with me.
It's yours!
Not mine.
I get that I chose you all those years ago. I was a different person.
I AM a DIFFERENT woman today!
Years ago sitting at a stop light...the song played on the radio, the light lasted for minutes longer than it should have, and I cried. Real tears of pain and relief washing over me as I started to reappear to myself and quietly say "I don't fucking care!"
In thedays years now...I walked away from you. I walked towards the unknown with hope and wonder. You were left standing, wondering who I was and how I got there.
I AM a DIFFERENT woman today!
Years ago sitting at a stop light...the song played on the radio, the light lasted for minutes longer than it should have, and I cried. Real tears of pain and relief washing over me as I started to reappear to myself and quietly say "I don't fucking care!"
In the
Shame on me for hiding it for all this time.
This is me!
I like who I am! I like the life I have chosen. I have made mistakes. I have made messes. I have had some glorious successes! I have had some fantastic adventures and excitement. I made peace with the fact that sometimes a hot bath and glass of wine alone soothe my weary soul. I like that my heart is open again. I speak my mind. I share how I feel. Most of the time I can not hide it from being seen on my face. I don't care about what anyone else thinks about this.
This is ME!
This is me!
I like who I am! I like the life I have chosen. I have made mistakes. I have made messes. I have had some glorious successes! I have had some fantastic adventures and excitement. I made peace with the fact that sometimes a hot bath and glass of wine alone soothe my weary soul. I like that my heart is open again. I speak my mind. I share how I feel. Most of the time I can not hide it from being seen on my face. I don't care about what anyone else thinks about this.
This is ME!
I am fucking done with hiding for fear that YOU won't feel big enough, special enough, whatever enough! I am ENOUGH! YOU are enough!
I ONLY have control over ME! You are welcome to join me if you are at the point where those voices in your head just don't matter anymore!
So if you are ready to stand up and just say FUCK YOU!
I just don't care join me, comment here, tweet this, repost this, blog about it, email me! Let's keep the conversation going!
It is time to stop hiding for fear of what THEY might think!
For me...I just don't care anymore!
How about you...what do you think?
So if you are ready to stand up and just say FUCK YOU!
I just don't care join me, comment here, tweet this, repost this, blog about it, email me! Let's keep the conversation going!
It is time to stop hiding for fear of what THEY might think!
For me...I just don't care anymore!
How about you...what do you think?
9 comments:
"You are enough" sounds so simple, but it can be so hard to accept.
Yes, simple can be so hard.
It takes time and practice...you can get to the acceptance part!
Yes, indeed! I'll stand up along side you and scream FUCK YOU. As you know, I've had it up to my eyeballs with "THEY" and "THEM" (whoever they are).
Thank you for sharing this! You are enough. You are loved.
xoxo, Lori
I appreciate your love and support!
I appreciate that people understand where this is coming from! :)
xoxoxo
i think you need to think bunny thoughts. Who can stay mad when contemplating such squishy furballs?
sometimes you just need to air out the un-bunny thoughts to make room for the good ones! :-)
well, i added you to my bunny list. check your emails. i hope i got the right one.
I am so proud of you. And I love that you are saying so much of what I've been working hard to say---and need to KEEP saying so that I don't forget...
I love you. I love this.
BREATHE. We all need to remember to breathe. We are enough. #thatisall.
Thanks for the love and support!
It is a journey for certain and I am growing stronger.
xoxoxo
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